JIEYING

2012-03-05T15:14:00.001+08:00

你能為了我, 不再那麼做嗎?
能為了不讓我哭, 不再那麼做嗎?

看見你常都拿些女生得照片給我看問我美不美. 你知道我心有多難過嗎. 尤其是笑著回答你的時候.

讓我很沒安全感, 我也會自卑.
你何曾看過我問你這個人帥不帥, 好不好看. 給你看, 也都是看女生. 雖然她們都比我美千倍. 但我還是希望你騙著我說 '娘子, 你最美'...

我是一個很被動, 很沒自信, 很沒安全感的一個人... 我討厭這樣的自己.

知道你跟她只是朋友, 但我還是控制不了自己的情緒. 你不要我跟誰聯絡我都刪掉她們. 還弄得一個討厭我.. 我知道我不能那麼要你不去聯絡一個人. 我這麼做, 都是我一廂情願的, 不能要你因為我為你這麼做.. 你就必須為我這麼做.. 所以, 算了, 我一個人默默的心痛就好了. 畢竟你已說, 你們只是朋友.. 是我傻, 是我自己要心痛的..

2012-03-05T04:42:00.001+08:00

我不想自私. 知道你跟她只是朋友. 但看到聽到你跟她whatsapp, 心還是痛, 淚還是流了. 我對自己, 又沒信心了..

2012-03-04T21:16:00.001+08:00

其實好多事情，有她們就夠了根本就不需要我。(T . T)

2012-03-02T19:49:00.001+08:00

寧願你罵我, 也不要你靜靜不開心的疼我. 這樣我會很內疚... :(

2012-03-02T04:44:00.001+08:00

常喜歡欺負你的我, 欺負你後自己心裡常都會痛. 知道你會痛我心也會痛, 還是那麼愛欺負你. 我是不是心裡不平衡呢? (._.)
我知道我自己不好, 所以我只能讓自己聽你的話, 希望能跟著你腳步, 也能做你喜歡做的事情. 因為我不好我甚麼都不會, 怕你嫌棄我, 所以只想, 跟著你, 能聽就聽, 能給就給, 讓你喜歡讓你開心, 只要你開心, 我一切都會很好. 我也知道我自己很幼稚, 我很不想做這樣的我. 我也知道你認識的女孩都好過我. 比我成熟, 比我善良, 比我好千倍的. 我對自己很沒信心, 很沒信心才會不應許你跟別的女孩聯絡. 你身邊個個人都那麼關心你, 那麼疼你, 那麼在乎你. 有時我真覺得我自己甚麼都不是. 只是你的女友.. 就只是你的女友, 後甚麼都不會甚麼都不是的女友. 每當聽見你說我跟誰樣子像, pattern像, 還是甚麼的時候我都會很不開心很不開心. 我不喜歡聽見你說我跟誰有同樣的地方. 因為我希望我在你心中是unique的. 不想跟任何人一樣. 也不想你在跟我的時候, 在我做一樣東西的時候, 你是想到別人的. 我要擁有你的一切! (T ^ T)
現在的你已經在我身邊睡得'ngoh ngoh ngoh'了. 明天, 也就是待會, 你就要離開我回家去了. 沒有抱抱, 沒有你的味道了. 每次到了這個時候都會很不捨得.
寶貝你昨晚喝酒後對我說的那些話. 我知道, 都是真的. 看到你那樣心好痛. 好想就此放手讓你別再那麼痛苦似的. 但我自私, 不想沒了你, 不想放開你. 我很愛你. 別故意要把我推走. 我們都很愛對方的. 天和緣份讓我們在一起. 好不容易在一起了, 別推開我好不好.

現在4:41am. 該睡覺了. 寶貝老公, 抱抱. 我愛你...

2012-01-11T18:54:00.004+08:00

I was trying so hard making the cookies that i baked for u

Trying to make it look perfect

When u said those stuff in facebook.

My tears just fell of my cheeks my heart broke straightaway once i saw that.

I was about to smash the stuff i prepared for you..

My heart was so painful T_T

老公我太爱你了

这样很辛苦

但这样的辛苦让我

感觉很幸福

你让我不能没了你

没了你我真的会疯掉

我希望你不开心

都能告诉我原因

这样我会知道

我还有资格

2012-01-10T16:34:00.005+08:00

最近的我们都很常在一起了
当然不能跟那些住靠近的情侣比
但至少我们见面的次数比之前多了好多
见面越多我感觉我越习惯有你在我身边了
那几天我真的好开心我感觉很幸福真的好幸福

回到来其实我只必须等多4天就4天罢了
为什么我的心就是那么痛那么想哭那么需要你
4天都让我感觉那么久了何况是那3个月
那天我问你在那3个月里我们会不会见面
在问你那问题之前我早已知道你是不会回答我的
但我还是忍不住问了你明知道你不会回答但心还是那么的痛

我好怀疑我的没关系是否是真的没关系
每当我对你说这句话时我心都在闷着
想着我不能那么自私不能那么过分
你陪我那么多天了你只没有回复我半个小时我就开始要崩溃了似的
我知道说这很白痴但我吃醋你身边的朋友
都能时常看到你

写这PO 听着那我喜欢的歌我泪都流了 T——T
我好想你老公

很对不起
我知道我没办法做到100分的好女友

2011-12-15T16:00:00.002+08:00

为什么人就是那么的犯贱不知足?

没得到的时候却想要得到她

得到她的时候就想要拥有她的全部.

我爱你

我不能没了你

可能对你而言我对你只是一种习惯

对我是习惯了但这习惯已站掉我心永远都删不掉的一大部份.

2011-12-15T15:19:00.003+08:00

Thanks all the this cute little earthlings that had wished me happy birthday :)

Dedicating this to :

Jason Tan, Chungvoon chow, Prins Ho, Ms. Machi, Chong Shiying, Jack Leh, Shin XDomo, Kranz Loh, X'ao Tb, Jasmin Foo, Monkeyz Mok, Felicia Soh, Mr. oh, Crystal 星, 凯利, JingRu Ng, Vivian Horn, Vivian Wen, Eileen Wong, Lister Nexus, Xian Yang, Han Shen, Jonathan, Su Ming, JunLim, Yi Xian, Xue Wen, 刘怪宝, 少祥, Joby Boh, Songseng Yap, Winki, Gary Wong, Lee Ann, 高骏, Junwen, Anthony, Tashreen, Zeon, Xiao Guai, Suchii, Leong Ho, Che Lin, Van Helsing, kimberly, Ricco Taniel Rosdi, alson, chinglai, Zheng Quan, Jacqueline, Amy, Winnie, 乖宝贝, Baocai, Jac Lee, Jario, Christ Ling, Xinni, Zhaozhi, Rin Ru Ri, Zen, Junhao, Jiajie, Willien, Tiffany, Km, Milson, Guodan, Evan, Hauman, Yiyun, Max Tan, Ricky, Chan Domo, marshall, Cap Limau, Allen, Chiayong, Yingying, John Tee, Marcus, Kenji Shino, Junyuan, Ly Chris, Weibin, Tony, Aaron, Yuanzi, Iva, Allen Yiu, Samsim, jones, 刘密密, Herman, Natalia Xue, Thomas Yeoh, Faizuan, Ee Teo Et, Sherilyn Khoo, 贝比, kim Jin Wook, Pooi yan, Khai Yee, 荣建, kamille, Cheang Jelly, Grace, Ying Wy, Nicola, Masdi, 贝贝仪, Susan, Max Vex, 冷酷吡, Kelly, Melissa Foo, Lee Vivian, El Van, Riieko, Serena, 康杰, Kirsten, 犬翔, Denise, Sue Ann, Alicia Soh, Josephine, Mischa, Crystal Yap, Jacky, Csy, Hongming, Istella, Karisse, Shihui, chingyu, Nadia, Xiangying, Ah Wei, Waiyan, LiLi Lee, Caroline, Stephy, Janna Boh, Veron, Jocelyn, Viki, Shirley, Liangping, Claire, George Koh, Jackping, Peiqi, Janice yi, Jane Lee, Thiri, Achacha Chiiriichaa Beeboobubble, Junwei, Cynthia, jialin, Meiying, Jiajie, Jared, Jason, Arisa, Rara Lin, Caroline Goh, jacky, Lisa, Nick khong, Farah, Bin, Regyne, Samuel, Jackson, Huey Qi, Vickie, Gabriel, Siaokia, Elvis, Abegial,Oliver Oscar, Edmund, Winyean, Daphne, Alicia Yap, Kenny, Cm, Jocelyn tan, Huiling, Cbay, ishiwata, Chachun, chingwei, yc tao, xiao nee, kelvin, Ah san, Adinasept, Seshe, Baoyen, Rolando, Waikit, firah, Aishu, Ken Ng, lavinge, Helen, javis, Angel Teng, ermest, Crsytal, Sue Ann, Mark Yu, Yvette, Akiyo, meichi, Canny, Rhj, shuylyn, Kris, Seah Jenny, Olivia, Risqy, Rachel, Henry, Junie, Chuiimun, Ricardo, Jamie, So Nick, Ophelia, Maegan, Jacob, Alberto, Gabriela, Rabella, Yawen, and lastly, Soorieya Pillai... :D

Most Importantly,

Thanks to my love of all,

My sweetest Senza Lewre :)

You're the reason why I'm happy on this very day.

I loves you.

2011-09-18T20:54:00.003+08:00

好多东西都好想告诉你,
但都害怕因我知道告诉你后, 你给我的回答会是什么..
好多东西都好想好好的慢慢的解释给你听.
但越说你只会越不开心,
所以宁可你误会我, 我也不想再解释下去..
....

心虽然次次都好痛, 但都压着自己的心,
试着的去安慰你,
这都是因为
我真的很爱你..

2011-08-24T23:07:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 4th MONTH ANNIVERSARY
MY HANDSOME HUBBY ZAZA (。^_^。)ε^ ) ♥

在一起4个月咯虽然4个月不长
但没关系因为我知道还有很多很多个月.年的纪念日在等待我们一起度过.
在那么多人的FB里头咋门都能在一起那是算种缘分了吧? 嘻嘻 >//<
其实每个人都想要得到最适合自己的石头.
可是在茫茫的沙滩上, 哪一颗才是绝对适合自己的呢?
我找到啦~ 也会一直打磨它, 将它打磨成颗钻石.
成为我林洁莹无价之宝.
有了一个人陪, 多了一个人分担我的一切,
有一个人会每天想着我, 恋着我, 盼着我.
做起任何事都觉得美妙.
那个人就是你；

Senza L ♥

跟你在一起, 过的每天都好开心.
当然我们都有吵架吵闹不开心的时候.
但亲爱的, 有哪个恋情是没有不开心争吵的时候的啊?
我们吵闹多少都是因为我们在乎对方吧?
在我们的爱情里我不需要物质上的任何东西.
有金没爱还不是一样会过得不开心? (*´Д｀)=3
我爱的要的是你.
跟你我感到好幸福这种快乐是用金钱都买不到的.
能说我傻说我还小, 我不管.
我就是很爱你.

你Senza L.是专属我Gina L.一个人的!♥

时间是打磨我们最好的考验
既然爱上了
我希望我们都别那么轻易放弃.
前方的路在等我们一起开拓我亲爱的老公ZAZA♥

2011-05-25T20:36:00.008+08:00

Gina Guccio经过了那么多，才发现我真的不能没有你老公 Senza Lewree. Can you promise me that you would never leave me alone and throw me aside? I'll loves you with all my heart (thou I only have 1 heart). I'm jealous because I care, I truly care about every single thing about you. I love you honey, happy 1 month anniversary. Stay by me forever, ♥ will you? :')

TWENTY FIFTH APRIL TWO OH ONE ONE.♥

HAPPY 1MONTH ANNIVERSARY HUBBY.

You, Senza Lewre is officially Gina's and only Gina's. I'll love you more over each and everyday, ain't gonna decrease. Handle my heart with care, and I'll scrupulousness handle yours. Promise me that you'll always be mine, truly. And that you will be single-minded, just me. :) loves

Mr Collins didn't come to school today, and the students are like saying that that's the first time that Mr Collins didn't come to school. Mr James didn't comes to school too so I was fucking free for that 3hrs, like half the day of my school time. Was texting with Hubby in class thou :) Science class is giving me a HARD time, I got so fucked-up by all the diatomic thingy?! Plus some bitch is trying to mess with me, when I fucking didn't do anything to her,didn't give talk to her. FUCK YOU DEEP MAN! See i'm quiet in class, doesn't mean that I'm good to be bullied at, sucka. Get a life fuck yo!

I LOOK GAGA.(insane)

Morning before I goes to school ;) *snapsnap

Guia (FILIPINO) & Amy (KOREAN)

I love the way she speak in korea!

See this Atif is making me LMAO.

This Terry is sleeping EVERYWHERE, damn ><'

This is fucking painful ! When I'm trying to pull my phone charger out cause it stuck somewhere . DAMN my nail just FLIPS UP ! GOSH

2011-05-24T22:12:00.004+08:00

Today was the second day of my school in NIS,

Knew 2 girls name Gia and Salina, Gia is 18 and she's from Philippines, and Salina is from Kuantan living in Nilai :D Everything is in a mess when we're having art class, It's like when I've got in to the class, i saw, all the phones and every shits are on their desk. oh goodness, I think in our class the student are like only scared of mr Geoffrey and ms Shanti. Got my student ID in the morning , and i look so damn fat in the picture. went to taekwondo to see, thinking of whether to take taekwondo for my co-cur anot. Chatting with Gia on the BBM and webcamming with my lovely hubby now. :)

2011-05-23T20:20:00.008+08:00

My school life officially starts today 23rd May 2011.

I was like damn, when I woke up. Cause I'd got use to dismiss my alarm call, and get back to bed again. Mommy called me at 8am and I kept hanging up her call, and at last I only realise that I've got school today. So I get out of bed like so damn rushy and went off to prepare. Cause I wanted to get to school earlier as today is my first day of school. Stephany brought me up to 9 Oak, having a form teacher named Mr Collins which is from Australia I think? Knew a Canadian girl named Chantel, who helped me all along today. After that a korean girl named May, a quiet and nice girl who's in the same BM class as me :D And a sillaye and weird indian guy? Who's close to Chantel. I enjoyed my day thou it's the first day of school. Mathematics class were in a MESS cause everyone is talking to one another like nobody's business when the teacher just continue his lecture infront WHEN I seriously can't hear NOTHING. Awesome huh? And BM class was a total free time. We did revision for about 15minutes? and the rest of the 45minutes was like, ok now the time is yours you can do anything you want. So , the PHONES, LAPTOPS, MP3, ELECTRICAL DICTIONARY is then all up on their desk. O hell yea. And you know what, I'd a guy classmate who's wearing Gucci's shoe, carrying a Louis Vuitton bag, and playing his Macbook. But, to me, he's like is he out of his mind? Speaking all sorts of nonsense to me like, O he wants your phone number, he likes you but he's shy to stay close you can talks to you. COMM'ON ! Giving me Ipod touch case for like.. fuck? sillaye. But he made me laugh like crazy in BM class. Calling a small guy sitting infront of him when he doesn't even know the name of the small guy. He's like kept on calling calling, all sorts of names, like Lee, Lim, Lin, Lee san, Lim san, BOY, SMALL BOY, green shirt boy. He kept on calling for like so damn LONG! And after that he just went to the small boy and kept on disturbing, poking the small boy ==" And I'm texting hubby in BM class :) MISS HER SO DAMN MUCHY LIKE CRAZY HELLA LOT!

And so, the school ends at 4pm, Jason and mommy came to fetch me back, but before that, we went to make the Student ID pass :) took picture, hope that I doesn't look awful in there gosh. hahahhahahah okays, that's it for today. Haven't been posting such a long post for quite a time already i guess :D BYE GUYS !

2011-05-22T02:52:00.015+08:00

21ST MAY♥

The first thing that you saw and that will make you feel so damn happy for the rest of the day, is your other half. Which is my Hubby♥ :D

Headed to take a shower and went of to Nadeje Patisserie with hubby to have our 'breakfast'♥

Went to buy bus ticket at 2pm, bought 330pm's.

So we headed off back home first to keep my stuffs.

We went out only at 3.15pm and that's so RUSH.

Hubby's driving was like WOW WOW & WOW ! HAHAAHAHHA

And luckily, Hubby got it not in time but at least the bus haven't really went off yet!

YAAAAOSH, keep the tears inside my eyes when i'm in the bus.

Missed Hubby too too too too too MUCHY! T^T

答应过的打勾勾过的绝对别忘了O ♥

3mths later, I'm praying hard for it. :')

Reached Seremban at 4.45pm

and we headed back to Puchong IOI's mall after that :)

Bought some stuff for my Nilai's apartment .

and had dinner at Little Pantry with mommy .

We both went GAGA cam whoring HAH!

20TH MAY♥

Went to Nilai International school to get my books & uniforms,

and headed to eat our breakfast at 11am with Jason and Mommy.

After we'd done eating our breakfast, Jason sent me to Seremban Terminal.

Reached the terminal at 12.20pm and bought 12.30pm ticket :)

First time, setting off to somewhere else alone!

The strength ain't in me, I've got it from you, hubby :D

Reached there at around 1:45pm?

Saw baby, WOO HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!

Went to ZAZARAN(Dataran Pahlawan) with Hubby,

Watched Priest at 3.50pm GOD DAMN BORED.

Hubby and I were laughing at them, kays for don't know what.

Maybe on the motor that they're riding on :T

After that we headed back to Hubby's home,

went out to Jonker Walk at 8pm.

FFFFFUUUUUULLLLL FULL FULL & FULL.

Actually Hubby planned to bring me to Arena and off to the beach next to it.

But there's damn too much peoples, and so I wanted to go home.

2011-05-09T23:18:00.024+08:00

Timesquare

Pergi Timesquare gaigai dgn Jacq & PHENGZAI :D
found the cute rabbit silicon case for my BB phone♥
We took 2hours to find where's the SUSHI KING. DAMN
Reached home @ round 9pm to meet Henry them all for a short basketball :)
& headed home~~

8TH MAY 2011 SUNDAY♥
Batu caves

Went to Batu caves @ 2pm , Phengzai went to KLCC @ 430pm :)
Went to eat LOKLOK @ NIGHTY :D

7TH MAY 2011 SATURDAY♥
Home

Didn't went out today was having flu :D
Phengzai went to drink with her uncle until mabok mabok :D
Aunts came over to my house to celebrate mother's day with grandmother till 2am :)

2011-05-07T15:46:00.022+08:00

My Baby Honey♥ went back to Kluang today :(

Miss her like crazy now.
She left a shirt at my place and I let 'dont know' wears it :D
I missed how you 'smell' me, :D
I missed how you called me niangzi,
I missed how to kissed me,
I missed how you hold my hand,
I missed the cute you when you're shy about me looking at you,
I missed the way you looked..into my eyes,
I missed your smile♥

Be mine always!

Although you're here only for 2 days,
I'm still very happy because we strive for this chance,
At least we have the chance to see each other in real,
and have the chance to hold on to your hand tight.
Never let 'far distance' be the excuse for us to break up.
If we loved, this isn't a problem.
We must cherish each other :')
25th APR we came together.
1st MAY you're officially mine.
5th MAY is the first time that we met.
Hold on to me tight and never let me go, like I do.

L.O.V.E.Y.O.U S.E.N.Z.A.H.U.B.B.Y♥

6TH MAY 2011♥
Chinatown, Sungei Wang

Woke up @ 9am , chatted with hubby♥ till around 11pm then we headed out to eat our breakfast . Went off to China town @ 4pm and when we got there, we 4 are like, where to go now? HAHA so we cab to Sungei Wang and eat at T-BOWL. Hubby♥ actually is going back tonight but then she decided to go back only at tomorrow morning :) My gastric is so damn fucking painful LIKE MAD and I puked T_T
After that we walked to Fahrenheit and then to Pavilion and CABBED home again :D
Cam whore with Phengzai in the cab HAHA! SILLAYE

5TH MAY 2011♥

Genting Highlands

Met Hubby♥ @ Puduraya at around 1130am and headed to buy bus ticket to Genting. HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY♥
Played the 360' roller coaster & went in to RIPLEY's Believe it or not.
Took 730pm bus back to TITIWANGSA and cab to DAIMA to get our dinner settled and walked home :)

2011-05-05T01:02:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday to you Happy birthday to you Happy birthday to you, HAPPY BIRD-DAY TO MY 3 PRETTY BABES!!

♥

JANELLE CHINEMMELY CHAN RACHEL CHAN

wish you guys have a blast birthday and wish you guys a BIG SUCCESS in everything! with lots of lovie from GINA :)

2011-05-04T22:50:00.009+08:00

4TH MAY 2011♥
LCCT - SUNWAY

Pheng & Jacq reached LCCT @ 10.10am, so mommy and I went to fetch them :)
And we headed to eat Dimsum as for our breakfast.
When we reached home, we're deciding where to go, and so we chose Sunway.
So we went there for Sisha first and decided to go to Sunway Lagoon after that.
And hell we didn't bring any clothes to change, so we went to buy all those stuffs :D
I bought a bikini and singlet @ Forever 21.
We went in at around 3pm :)
Mommy came at 6pm+ and Jacq wanna eat KFC so we went to dabao KFC before we went home.
I'm anticipating for tomorrow's coming,
Going Genting with Hubby, Jacq& Pheng ~~
Hope it's a successful one thou we doesn't have much time. :)
Drank with Pheng in my computer room, just 2cups of Chivas, NO MOOD!
DAMN THE FUCKING SPEAKER I'VE GOT T_T GOTTA GET IT REPAIRED OR A REPLACE ONE!

2011-05-03T22:30:00.003+08:00

I just want to
stand in front of the train
and let it ravage
my body, savage
and uncivil.
I just want to
open up my blood,
set it loose, mix with mud
drop the knife and watch the red run free.
T_T

2011-05-03T22:11:00.004+08:00

Mommy finally came back home :)
This trip to Sabah we totally wasted 3 air ticket .

Actually Mommy's plane is last 2 days and she thought that it's yesterday ..
So she had to buy an air ticket to come back AGAIN .
We went to Tesco at night as Grandpapa wants to buy something, :)

2011-05-03T21:51:00.003+08:00

2ND MAY 2011♥

Went to swim with Henry, Mark, KM, Chinwei, Chunwun &Weixiong :)
Asked Henry to buy me KFC before he come haha, been don't know how many WEEKS didn't eat already, :P I know I sound hilarious here.
We played Basketball and swim under the rain, with thunder strikes striking everywhere :S
After we'd done swimming, Chunwun ride me to MCD, and Mark ride alone :D
But when we reached there, MCD is CLOSED!!!
DAMN > <

终于看完 '下一站幸福' 了,真的好幸福 :')

2011-05-02T17:59:00.003+08:00

Trust

A five letter romance

An after-glow of something more

Or something less

A timeless committment

An unbeatable truth

A lie, a smile, a fake, a tear

A slip of hand, a bruise to the face

Or an ego deflated

A glimpse of promise

A catch of faith

Or a hallucination of carelessness

A friend, a lover, a teacher

For the strong

But more so,

For the weakest.

I select a few,
and give the pieces away,
asking you- whatever you do-
don't hurt me.
Because I love you enough,
I trust you enough,
to give a piece of me to you.
It's okay to give up....
But whatever you do, always remember-
I've trusted you.

♥

♥♥

♥

Trust.

It's something earned,
and to be given.
It's like an ember of my heart,
Placed inside yours
To hold and protect.
Extinguishing it or throwing it away
Will break our bond,
It may never be repaired.
Don't try to steal an ember,
For it's not rightfully yours
Until I personally place it in your chest.
Once it's there,
It grows and strengthens
Until it's a fire.
A fire of trust
That can't be extinguished
That can't be thrown out.
It will always be there,
Linking me to you.

2011-04-30T23:10:00.019+08:00

30TH APR 2011♥
IOI - MY HOUSE,LAKE EDGE

Woke up at round 11am, Jay went to meet her friend when Henry and I went to meet Weixiong to get our breakfast settled :) That KM, said that he will wake up and come to my house in the morning to swim. But he is the one who didn't wake up in the end :D After eating, Henry 'em all decided to go to IOI cause of their WANGAN stuffs zz. We watch The Lost Bladesman @ 2pm :) I kept laughing inside the theater, cause of the indian guy sitting next to Henry. They were trying to say CHAOCHAO but they end up saying : @#$%^JIAO JIAO@#$%^&*(%^&. Damn, I kept laughing non-stop! We headed back home at around 630pm because KM wants to swim :) But in the end we only start swimming @ 9pm :l because we're cam-whoring and fooling everywhere :D

29TH APRIL 2011♥
MID VALLEY

Weixiong waited for me outside the guardhouse for half hour plus because I only start bathing when he reached the guardhouse HAHA! I was so damn nervous till i got my shampoo and bath-foam messed up! That's sillaye. So Weixiong and I walked to TESCO at 2.30pm to meet Rachel, Esther & Henry :) After that we bused to MID VALLEY. Met that BASTARD William ( nooffence ) on the bus-stop. So we first headed to buy out ticket first and the guys headed to the ARCADE -,- Caught the show The Red Riding Hood @ 5.30pm :) Before watching, Henry, Rachel, Esther and I went to CARL's JR as i haven't yet ate my lunch or breakfast :( After the show finished, i went off to meet JOEY, just for that lil while, accompanied her to get the dinner :) And we headed off to the LIBRARY @ 830pm. Tryna to get rid of that Bastard William when we're walking to the bus-stop and or in the BUS! HE FREAKED ME OUT, LIKE TOTALLY, SERIOUSLY, HE PISSED ME OFF. _|_

LIBRARY, IOI BOULEVARD ♥

Met BLUETING , I'm very happy because it's like I'd never thought that I could meet her you know ? :D Drank bit of beer and TING ordered a bottle of redwine, :D We were there along with MARK, HENRY, WEIXIONG, and KM. Luckily, this time, them guys helped me to get rid of WILLIAM ;) Mark went off leaving us earlier than we do :( SAD! Followed by KM, because he's going off to Negeri Sembilan to see drifting with his brother. Left the 4 of us, TING ordered me a cup of cocktail when I'm kinda dizzy :D After that TING & I went off to walk around for awhile and chitchat, when we're back, Henry wasn't there. Left Weixiong sleeping there ALONE HAHAH LAUGH DIE ME :X We went outside to sit at around 1am? to wait for TING's friend to come :) CAMWHORE there till her friend comes :D Then , Weixiong, Henry and I cab back home :) Drop Weixiong half way cause he wanna go back to his house and Henry followed me home :) Jay came to my house at around 3am.. AND HELL DAMN I COULDN'T SLEEP UNTIL 5.30am+ T_T

2011-04-26T15:05:00.003+08:00

MARK ASKED ME TO POST THIS UP WITHOUT BLURRING OUT MY DAMN FACE

2011-04-26T13:21:00.004+08:00

The day I met you, I found a friend. And a friendship that I pray will

never end.
Our friendship is one-in-a-million, hold on to it and each other.
We cannot let this chance of pure bliss fly away.
For there will never be another.
A few true friends like you guys are more than enough :')

JEANNIES - The one and only who's with me when I'm .. DRUNK and whenever I'm down :D
MARKY - My randomly good friend. We quarrel, We Laugh, We play, We'd FUN!
HENRYS - The Emo guy who share his load in one's mind with me.

MARK YU ; JEANNIE SER ; HENRY SHIN :)

2011-04-24T18:59:00.000+08:00

Secret, hidden underneath it, Trying hard to keep it
Safely out of reach.
Creeping, I can feel it breathing,
Calling to the surface,
Finally in my dreams.

Sweet despair feel you devour me...
Silently, Oh won't you carry me..
Home..

Taken down I give into what I can't disguise.
I surrender..I surrender
Broken down, I give into what I can not have..
I surrender..I surrender

Locked in, Buried under my skin
Riding on the whispers, Restless in the wind
Hunted, I can feel it coming
Keep me under cover in what could of been

2011-04-17T12:21:00.011+08:00

17th JUNE 2011 Sunday

Went to eat Dimsum in the noon and went off to watch Scream 4 with
Canz , Nick , Connie , Jeannie & Janice :]
Went to Sri Petaling Balai to make report of Canz's car and headed off to Kuchai Caribbean Cafe to have our dinner , & home sweet home at 11pm :]

16th JUNE 2011 Saturday

Slept at 6am and woke up by mom at 11pm , luckily she wakes me up , if not i'm gonna be late late late ! My phone went out of battery in the morning , and so the alarm didn't fucking rang . But thanks to my mom :] So , reached U-Maiya at 12pm . Was so afraid that I'll be late but half of the people haven't even reach yet . haha FIUH~ So there's 13 people together in a room :]
Chunwun , Chinwei , Yikjun , Yikshan , Me , Jeannie , Connie , Henry , Esther , Weixiong , Jason , Mark and Chentze.
I was so damn insane that day oh damn it . Mark's head was darn heavy as he drank too haha . I was slapping his face in the car hahahaha ! We went of to Sunway , met Canz . After that
Chunwun , Mark , Henry , Me , Jason , Yikjun , Chinwei & Weixiong
went to watch Ghost also laughs ? LOLS
The friends are just so sweet , fist pump with me before getting off :']
And home sweet home at 8pm ~

I enjoyed & I appreciated , Seriously !

2011-04-16T01:02:00.006+08:00

I JUST FIND THE POPCORN'S BOX CUTE WITH RIOOOO ON IT :P

RED HOT SEXAYE UNDERWEAR MAN! :P

I HEARTS MY BBERRY!

ME & MY PYJAMAS!

15th APR 2011 Friday

wasnt a good afternoon ,

until i called henry up and met him up in Midvalley.

Watched Love and other Drugs at 645pm with Mark & Henry.

Before going in to the cinema we went to meet Weixiong,Kuanzi,Chunwun&William.

Then to Zara, didn't bought anything, didnt even get to see the clothes cause Henry ran off -,-

Went to had our dinner done and headed to the cinema :]

Snaps pictures with 'em two silly fellow haha!

Henry said : 1,2,3 say 'fuck yoooou'

Mark replied : fuck yoooou

I was laughing like mad crazy !n Sillaye !

The movie was damn LOOOONG like 2hrs? with so many CUT CUT CUTTED PARTS ! ARG

thou it's so sweeeeeeeeet :]

Both of 'em was once a sex partner , paging each other once they 'need it' haha!

and turned out to be fallen in a real relationship although the girl gotten Parkinson Disease.

When we are in the theatre, we 3 were laughing randomly even when there's nothing funny showing up in the movie; haha!

Henry's phone rang in the middle and his ringtone was a baby laughing -,- wtf

them 2 were bullying me throwing popcorns at me T_T AWWS!

I ran of straight to the toilet when the show ends, HAHA.

And went to MNG :)

bought 1pants 2tops.

When I was paying Henry was like : DID U SEE THE PRICETAG ?

hahahaha :D

so, reached home at around 11pm :)

annnnnnnnnnnnnd , gonna clear up my STACKS of clothes ! damn , harssssssh :(

U-MAIYA WITH ALL SCHOOLBABES TOMOOOOOORROW!

2011-04-14T21:18:00.006+08:00

MORNING MORNING MORNING :D

thou i woke up at 1pm hahahahas!

Bought air tickets to Sabah :(

I totally messed-up, I'm so sorry Senza.

After thaaaat, my youngest uncle came to our house with his cute son at 3pm :]

Chatted till around 6pm and went back home~

Came up continue downloading apps for my BB

And my BBERRY device gonna out of memory , Awwws!

13th APR 2011

Went to Pudu at round 5pm,

went to fetch Huimin from tuition and bought Keropok Leko :]

On the way back , saw one auntie posing at the recycle bin area and an uncle snapping pics.

what on earth............. hahahaha

After that Dawshin them all came to my house at round 7pm

And i head back home to get myself changed and off to pool !!!! ^^

been half a year since i last saw them OMG !

After all I called for Mcdelivery and he arrived at 10pm :]

Went to the garden to eat while feeding the mosquitoes T___T

Slept at around 5am+,

was messing with my handphone themes and smscrunch layouts :D !

crazy :L

Too bored so i start talking to myself in MSN HAHAHHA

2011-04-12T00:40:00.002+08:00

I'd figured out unhappiness,
and where it's boundaries lie,
I figured where it targets,
and how its supposed to die.

I figured out its a decision of choice,
that brings it to our heart,
I figured out it a fight with fate,
to bring it to its death.

I finally realized that I can be happy,
as long as we are friends,
and even though it'll hurt for a while,
I know you'll make amens.

I didn't mean to hurt you,
in the decision that I've made,
sure I found out the wrong way,
but its a risk that I had to take.

but again, unhappiness wasnt your fault,
it's just my state of mind,
I'm fighting a war against it.

So what I can say now is,
try not to be pissed,
and make peace,
even though it shall not be missed.

So I ask you Mr Unhappy,
Can you please be happy?

2011-04-11T23:24:00.002+08:00

11th APRIL 2011 Monday

Yesterday night was a insane night again.
so annoyed ! Hais ,
Went to Pudu today at 4pm+ and reached there at around 5pm.
Met Jay Weeeee for awhile and she headed to Cheras.
Ate steamboat with mommy , and bought my PSP charger .
Haven't been touching my PSP for more than a year already . WOW :D
And who the hell now still using the first version of PSP ? HAHA GINA !! :X

2011-04-10T22:16:00.002+08:00

I let you go while smiling then

I'm not like other girls
I can't be too cunning like them
I can't meet anyone else
because I can only think of you
What should I do? I keep missing you
I miss being in your arms already
I still like you
We used to spend the night talking
You used to want to be with me always
I tried to erase them but it's not working well
Foolishly, my tears keep coming .

2011-04-10T16:46:00.002+08:00

MOTHER FUCKER.

不是我不会珍惜你这个烂人而是我忍够了！
Don't come begging me , because i won't give a single fuck to you , nomore .
Get the hell out of my life .
Look at how despicable you are first , then criticize me .
After viewing at how despicable you are , i won't get mad about you criticizing me .
Cause i know myself that i'm not as despicable as you .

2011-04-10T15:33:00.003+08:00

9th April 2011 Saturday

woke up at 12pm today ,
called Jay Liki out ,
Took her hour plus to get to my house .
When we reached Sunway Pyramid ,
We walked for dont know how long to just sit down and have something to eat -,-
Decided to go nandos , then fong lye , then popeye , at last ~~
We went to The Garden ;D
Chatted for round 2plus hours and headed back home at 5.30pm :]
Silly yet enjoyable conversations and day :D

2011-04-09T02:53:00.014+08:00

8th April 2011 Friday

Went out with Jason at 7pm for dinner :]

Headed to Serdang, to PutraJaya, then to Nilai and Home Sweet Home at 11pm :D

First time getting rose, and gotten 4bunches of roses in a year.

That's so wow for me .

3 bunches of wilted roses from valentine.

Cam-whore with mommy :D

My closet of plushies !

2011-04-07T20:33:00.016+08:00

Roses are red , damn I wish I was dead .
Violets are blue, and I hate you.
I do not believe that hatred grows over a day.
Neither does it grow instantly.
It needs an evil hand to feed it, an evil essence to nurture it.
I thought that it was finally over;
Once again, you proved me wrong.
I tried so hard to break away.
You couldn't blame me
if I view every single person
with contempt
Life has certainly presented me with life's darkest secrets.
I bleed quietly
Quietly I bleed
An invitation to open bacteria
to consume me
to engulf me within
Watch me as
I disintegrate.

6TH APRIL ♥

Tonight's 730pm flight to KL :]
Didn't go to Kolombong in the morning as I'm not feeling well .
Home Sweet Home at 1030-11pm .
My uncle and GRANDPARENTS♥ came to our house, I'm so happy.
Was chatting and drinking coffees with them :]
Went back up to my room at 12am+ knowing that my toe nail is coming off !
and the hell , i cut 'em off T_T
There goes my ugly toeeeee . brrrrr
Got to bed only at 5am+ in the morning .

5TH APRIL♥

A great last day in Sabah :]
Had lunch at KFC with sis again hah !
Took tons of pictures with her and with cool :]
Ema , Nick and Cool helped me to get my fake hair out .
It took them around 1halfs hours or 2 maybe .
Went to Tg. Aru at night, we got wet in the rain once again .

4TH APRIL♥

went to fetch Vincent at Terminal 2 .
The damn damn malay poh came and knocks mom's car and tryna to run away . -'-
Obviously it was her fault , even the onlooker/bystander said that it was her fault .
Asked her to pay us rm200 back to get it fixed .
But she determine not to pay . diu*
Phengkak and I went to had our supper at Fookyuen.
Something bad happened that night .
Three of us , sis , cool and I got wet in the rain .
Made me felt so exhausted and pissed .
But thanks Lord sis is with me :]
If isn't her, it'll be a harsh day for me .

3RD APRIL♥

A silly day with Pheng kak :]

Condoms? :D

2ND APRIL♥

Got to kolombong late today :)
couldn't get up in time hah !

1ST APRIL♥

Had Kfc as lunch with Pheng kak :]
Accompanied her to get bulbs for her booth ,
was a hot and harsh trip to the shop =,=

31ST MARCH♥

Didnt sleep for the whole day and went to airport straight at 530am in da morning :]
Reached Kota Kinabalu, Sabah at around 10am, headed to Kolombong only in the afternoon.
Backed home at 10am and had Borneo Burger :D

2011-03-30T18:01:00.008+08:00

GOTTA SLACK AT HOME DOING NOTHING TODAY! :O

29th MAR

Woke up at 830am and went to eat dimsum with mommy :)
Went IOI to get myself WAXED HAHAHAHA.
Watched Rango with mommy -,- sat couple sit together HAHAH!
Mommy and I bought 3pairs of CROCS :)
Mommy went to South City to find the indian guy to get the salt lamps.
Both of 'em doesn't know how to speak english and i kept laughing non-stop at their conversation :D

28th MAR

Sent Paddy to aunt house :(
Realised that me and Paddy wore couples shirt :D
Blue top and brown bottom :D
Went home and drank cockburn alone . Vomited twice damn painstaking T_T

27th MAR-

Went to Midvalley and watched movie with some dumbass :D
Crazy hot wearing the jacket *cries*

2011-03-27T12:49:00.003+08:00

You're everything everything that I wanted , Superman
That crazy Jay always makes me speechless .

Yesterday Blue got drunk and called me in the middle on the night . HAHAHAHA !
Gotta head to Midvalley to watch movie later on :)

2011-03-27T01:28:00.003+08:00

Woke up at 930am this morning and couldn't get back to sleep.
So I went downstairs to get Paddy up to my computer room .
Today , was a great day I guess ?
I feel so grateful that I'd someone who would give me guidance throughout .
Really does have to content with one's lot .
Never be an avarice person .
I'm contented , having a great mommy afterall .

Never try to suicide because of love .
That's the most stupidest thing ever .
Sometimes i would think that , love really messed-up one's life if something goes wrong .
I never believe in forever thou , but I know forever does exist .
Only if 'em both appreciate it and treasure it a lot .
Jealous kills . Mmmm ,
In love , there must be trust in it , that's the most important thing i guess ? :D

I know I'm being so damn random saying about all this stuffs ,
it's just because things just got into my mind so randomly ,
that makes me wants to say this random stuffs out HAHA !